Today it hit me that The Benjamin Gate will be nonexistant in ten days. I think I'm finally past the shock and now I just want to cry and cry and cry. Their music has been such an important part of my life! I don't want them to be gone. And I doubt they're staying in the US, especially since God keeps telling me that he wants Adrienne to go home to South Africa soon. And yes, a little I mourn because I never got a letter, and how do I know I matter? I love them, does that count for anything? Sigh.... I'm gonna go sleep for a little while and hopefully wake up to an email saying that they are after all playing Fallquest. hmph.