dream (screaming in frustration about lookism) / when to speak up about prejudice with acquaintances
I was on a college campus with a group of students in their early twenties, laying around on the grass talking. One person started talking about how 'ugly' ze looked without makeup and styled hair (rumpling zir eyebrows, wiping off zir eyeliner, and mussing zir hair to show us). I said, "What's the difference? You look the same to me!" (implying that attractiveness is inherent, and that makeup is for decoration, not correction (in that layered meaning dreamspeak can have)) and some other person started explaining it to me, essentially tearing the first person down by saying how 'awful' ze looked without the subterfuge! and the first person nodded along, smiling, not defending zirself at all! I couldn't take it anymore and I ran off, a long ways away on the other side of the building, and SCREAMED out my frustration. As I was screaming, someone who looked like Adam Lambert (haha) came up to me and said, "I want to hear what you have to say" and I responded with disbelief at first but then told zir how I just couldn't stand lookism, and went into it in-depth, as ze listened intently and considered what I was saying. Then there was something with zir wanting to be with me and me saying that it would be too much of a clash of worlds, and then rushing off in magic coaches but that's blurry and not important.---
This is the second time in as many weeks that I've had a dream where I screamed about lookism. (a Bel-definition of the word: lookism is the attitude that it is appropriate to rate the attractiveness of people (others and/or oneself) by external qualities. Lookism is prejudice based on one's own ideal for attractiveness, which may or may not match the societal ideal, and may or may not include more than one style of look. ANYTHING that says "x is more attractive than y" is lookist -- thus, saying that curvy women are prettier than slender women is just as lookist as the opposite). I think my dreams are using lookism as a stand-in for all prejudice.
I've been spending more time with people who haven't been hand-picked for their willingness to unlearn prejudice (like my LJ friends) and so I've been hearing a lot more lookism and sexism (which intersect really well as lookism is closely tied to gender -- ideals are often measured by how 'feminine' or 'masculine' they are). And I really don't know how to react. Because honestly if I spoke up every time someone said something prejudiced I'd be doing it every five minutes! it's how people relate! So I can't do it every time but I don't know how to pick the best times so I end up saying nothing. Apparently my spirit is getting so fed up with my silence that it is screaming when it gets the chance -- in my dreams.
How do you know when you know someone well enough to possibly embarrass them by pointing out that their mindset is prejudiced? I mean, I'm fine doing that with my deep relationships because I don't want deep relationships with prejudiced people, but with casual relationships? If it's one issue, it's so simple, but when it's an issue tied with five more issues, all of which together form the person's worldview, where do you even begin? I don't want to change anyone, necessarily, I just don't want to come away feeling like I've been silent in the face of prejudice when I should have taken the opportunity to speak up. And I don't want to be TOO bold and have someone close off to change when they might have otherwise realized their error. I just want to be true to my beliefs in a way that is not so harsh it gets shut out and not so gentle it isn't noticed. I really am not sure how to develop this balance. ((I'm not really looking for advice right now, because I feel like this is something I need to figure out on my own, but if you want to share your own experiences of confronting prejudice, they'd be very welcome.))
If I can, I try to just say what I think in passing and not make a big issue about it unless pressed for more information. If I don't "feel" like the situation is appropriate for my own opinions, I'll remain silent. There have been a number of occasions when the other person's opinion was just so strong, I felt actually ill. But again, if this person is not a close friend and I suspect they will not be respective of my views, I find it better to ignore them and excuse myself and not subject myself that that sort of "mental torture".
Do you think Lookism is only applied to "attractiveness" or can it also be applied other things? For example, when I get on a late night train, I always try to avoid the carriages that contain people whom I view as potential "trouble makers", such as young teenagers, wearing ripped jeans and skateboards, or just anyone who doesn't look "clean cut" (not sure how else to say it without sounding judgmental). And I try and sit with people who appear to me around my age, well dressed etc. This is because I feel safer since people have been known to be attacked / robbed on the trains by the former (not to say the latter wouldn't do the same, but generally based on what the media tells us which is all I have to go by), so I do judge people based on appearance to protect myself. I'm not sure if you see this as Lookism, but I find it very difficult to "fight off" this internal "survival" way of thinking.
Take, for instance, my friend E--. He was a huge guy, dressed gothic, with wild, curly hair, mutton chops and a tongue ring. He was a veritable Hulk even without his big boots on. He came trotting up to an old lady in a parking lot, who was extremely alarmed to see him standing there... offering to help her put her groceries into the car. :)
I'm not saying you shouldn't trust your gut. Sometimes we have intuitive feelings that I don't feel we should ignore. But sometimes looks can be deceiving. :)
I should clarify that I don't at all judge people based on appearance at all for virtually anything else I can think of. The people I love the most in my life are covered in piercings, tattoos, cry "bloody murder" and as much as it breaks my heart, many of them so have substance abuse problems(aka, people my mother would never approve of ;) ), but I love them all so much, they have hearts of pure gold and I trust them with my life. I actually get told a lot by my co-workers that the people I am friends with don't seem to match me (which is absurd) because I am very "clean cut", no piercings, no tattoos, never even dyed my hair! Goodness, I don't drink alcohol, nor coffee or smoke lol. I get labeled "good girl" a lot, even though I think the term is just too strange.
On the flip side, working in the "corporate world", I've met one too many characters who are the exact opposite, though they are "well" dressed and clean cut. So much so I have had to file complaints to HR or confront them myself.
At the end of the day, I've (fortunately) never seen or been attacked on a train before, but I read about it (hence me mentioning the media, honestly if I didn't read the newspaper, I'd have no idea people could be attacked on trains! And the newspaper always seems to claim people with a "rough" appearance were the attackers) and know it's a real possibility. When I step on a train late at night, my intuition guides me and I sit around the people who I feel are safest to be with. Unfortunately, because I don't know any one on the train personally, I have nothing but their appearance to judge them with. I am completely against people who do judge based on looks, but in a situation like this? I'm often at a loss as what is the "right" thing to do, given I am absolutely terrified of ever being attacked :(
I consider myself to be an open-minded person, but the way my mind always seems to jump to conclusions in these sorts of situations always makes me wonder how open minded am I really? :( It's confusing.
I don't think it's wrong for you to get on the train car with clean-cut people if only because they're similar to you in appearance -- you aren't obvious there and maybe less likely to be targeted? Whereas when you're the one tidy-looking person in a train car full of people who dress in a more alternative or aggressive manner, you are more apparent and sort of the odd man out?
It is a tough situation to consider, but maybe "sticking with your tribe" is the best way to be safe.
That really resonated with me.
And as for your dilemma you presented... to sit with those who appear less suspect is a false sense of security. However, if I presumed everyone to be potentially harmful I wouldn't make it pass the front door!