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Expect to find curse words, nudity, (occasionally explicit) talk of sex, and angry ranting, but NEVER slurs or sexually violent language. I use TW when I am aware of the need and on request.

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communication fast -- making prayer runes
I'm really filled with love for you all right now ♥ I feel so blessed to have people like you in my life! Thinking about you makes me just shake my head and glow in wonder... All of you are my learnsharers, my teacher/students. I love learning with you! I'm so glad you're with me on my journey.

(now for the actual subject of my post!) For months I'd had a plan in the back of my mind for a spiritual creative project -- prayer runes -- but it never felt like the right time to actually make them. I spent quite a few hours on them each day of the fast (as they had to dry between times so that the paper wouldn't melt), and since then I've been using them in my meditation/prayer time.

I made them for the people who've had some kind of major positive impact on my life, regardless of whether or not we are currently in contact or on good terms. ((for instance, "Michael?" is someone whose last name I never knew, who was the first violet spirit I ever met -- I'd never felt such an instant or deep connection before zir, and ze opened my eyes to the possibility of so many things. Have you ever met a stranger with whom your eyes LOCKED, you could not tear your gaze away, and you felt COMFORTABLE with such an intimate thing even while talking?)) There are at least two more people whom I love very much and want to add -- but I wanted to keep this to people who I'd made a real-time connection with, otherwise I'd have made a ton more. But I do have hopes to make new runes as you become more of a part of my life.

The colors aren't perfect, as I was using markers and couldn't layer/mix colors (and some of them melted a bit), but they're pretty close for the most part, in real life. (in my photos they're a bit off) The center color is what I see the person's spirit as; the middle color is the heart; and the outer color is the soul. ((explanation of what I mean by those words))




not color-accurate but I love the shape

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this one is the most color-accurate

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all the backs look like this, and when you hold them up to the light you can read "I love you" through the name :D

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their home

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I keep the bag in my sanctuary, and when I go in to meditate I draw two runes, place them on my altar, and pray for those two people. Throughout the day I keep them in my mind, praying over them and sending them love. I also have a bowl of papers which have the names of all my flist (except a few who I don't feel like I know well enough yet) and I draw eight of those and pray over them as well (but don't keep them in my mind because I think I'd forget some if I tried to keep that many at a time).

So far this has been a wonderful motivation for me to meditate, because I feel like the universe can tell me who most needs some divine attention (or just love from me) and then I can act on that ♥ (and! they're so pretty, I just love looking at them! glass+glitter+color = love) I love how they each feel so true to me; like a little connection to you.
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<3 well, there was a lot of pain involved but I learned so much and grew so much from both the bad and the good. And you helped me to realize a lot of things about myself -- seeing them reflected in you, in some ways. Like sexuality -- I think you were the first person I met who was bisexual-in-a-hetero-monogamous-relationship without calling yourself straight, and I found that very inspiring. And also spirituality -- we didn't actually talk about it that much, but the fact that you essentially took it seriously and lived your best, without an outside structure to guide/confine/approve -- I was very inspired by that and I think it was a catalyst for a lot of realizations for me. So yeah, overall definitely positive. ;-)

oh yeah, and thanks for all that! *giggles*
Well look at all I accomplish without knowing. Go me. :-P Really though, I'm glad you drew so much positivity.

Mind if I ask a couple questions (about the post itself)? I read the post you linked to about your definitions of spirit/soul/heart, but what significance do you link to the colors themselves (ie, what do the colors mean, in relation to those aspects, or in general to you)? I'm also curious as to what you see your own triad of colors to be, if you don't mind sharing.
well, I can't really express them in words, except for some of them, and then only the broadest generalities. I understand them by similarities, mostly? hm. it's really impossible to put into words as it's not at all a logical thing.

My colors are: vivid violet spirit, spring green heart, bright scarlet soul. The things I know about them are that violet spirits are very idealistic and dreamy and rational (and I would say telepathic, but I think that's a open-similar-colors thing, not a violet thing -- meaning that I think that an open x spirit would be almost telepathic with another open x spirit), green hearts are very sensitive to plants, and red souls love conflict and are fierce, and often extremely protective.

I gave your colors my best guess but to be honest I am not sure if they are right since I don't know you all that well right now and haven't been in person with you in a long time, but as I see them they are: yellow-orange spirit, teal-green heart, raspberry-red soul. So I feel a connection with you on both a heart and soul level, stronger soul-wise.

heh, that probably confused more than it explained but there you go. ;-)
That probably came out a lot more coherant than you thought. It made perfect sense to me, I just think when you have a billion different thoughts on a subject flying through your mind (in this case, the many facets of how you interpret those colors) it's hard to believe that you convey those thoughts with any sort of clarity. At least that's how I am when I try to sort out my own thoughts on such matters; things that make perfect sense inside my brain seem to turn into senseless goo when I put them in writing. If only people would just open up the window to our brains and read for themselves, it would save us so much trouble trying to translate. :-P

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