phone / work / God's been reaching out to me
DAMMIT! Because I paid my phone bill 6 days early, they turned it off. Fuck. I am seriously so pissed about that. Ben said he'd deal with it when he gets off of work, though. They better work it out or I'm gonna be borrowing a phone to call some people and throw fits! This is ridiculous.
They're working me way too much for my taste. My Tuesdays and Saturdays are already filled with counseling & support group & church & home group & (very soon) bellydancing, and then I work four 9-hr days -- so I only have ONE DAY to relax. Me no lika dat. But I'll suffer for a bit so that we can get ahead faster. Oh, and the other day, I came back from lunch and Polly was taking out my drawer, and she said, "Kristen?" "Yeah?" "Thank you for coming back." She said it so sincerely and with such relief. I am teh bestest!
God has been really reaching out to me lately. I am convinced that some of the ladies in my support group must have been praying extra hard for me last week, because I have felt a change in my spirit. I can't pin it down, but something is different. Maybe there's one less demon whispering in my ear. I find it a little easier to hope. And I was working yesterday and one of the women in my group saw me from a distance and God moved her to write me a little note of encouragement and give it to me. She included Romans 8:28-29 -- "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For God knew his people in advance, and he chose them to become like his Son, so that his Son would be the firstborn, with many brothers and sisters." This is a verse I have told myself many times, and I believe it about everything else, but when it comes to sexual abuse... "all things"... I don't feel like he worked for my good. And it's something I have to find for myself, so please don't try to help me see it.
They're working me way too much for my taste. My Tuesdays and Saturdays are already filled with counseling & support group & church & home group & (very soon) bellydancing, and then I work four 9-hr days -- so I only have ONE DAY to relax. Me no lika dat. But I'll suffer for a bit so that we can get ahead faster. Oh, and the other day, I came back from lunch and Polly was taking out my drawer, and she said, "Kristen?" "Yeah?" "Thank you for coming back." She said it so sincerely and with such relief. I am teh bestest!
God has been really reaching out to me lately. I am convinced that some of the ladies in my support group must have been praying extra hard for me last week, because I have felt a change in my spirit. I can't pin it down, but something is different. Maybe there's one less demon whispering in my ear. I find it a little easier to hope. And I was working yesterday and one of the women in my group saw me from a distance and God moved her to write me a little note of encouragement and give it to me. She included Romans 8:28-29 -- "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For God knew his people in advance, and he chose them to become like his Son, so that his Son would be the firstborn, with many brothers and sisters." This is a verse I have told myself many times, and I believe it about everything else, but when it comes to sexual abuse... "all things"... I don't feel like he worked for my good. And it's something I have to find for myself, so please don't try to help me see it.
wow, that IS a busy schedule. i hope you DO take some time for yourself.
oddly, whenever my life threatens to go off the rails (which is not very often, i think twice maybe), my mother's prayer group puts some extra oomph in their prayers for me. apparently, it works. i mean, i'm still here, right? glad you have people looking out for you and caring.
That made me giggle.
;)
Me too. ;-)
WTF
Why are these financial companies such bloody morons?????
DELL is the DEviLL
Their computer system is so disorganized it take three orders to get your order done. And 20 hours of phone time.
A minute later he was like "And I am not Indian!!!"
Quite profusely, I think he was in Pakistan. *lol*
Regards, at that point, I was tired of having been on the phone for 30 minutes and spending half of that time dealing with failings in linguistic understandings preventing me from getting him to see the actual problem.
I miss you.
I can't believe a phone company would do that. then again, a lot of companies have been slacking in buisness.
ugh, so much is going on for everyone. I hope you can handle the pressure.
Your hopeful, energetic attitude is always a breath of fresh air.
awww... thank you! That means a lot. ;-)
It an odd experience to have something you hold to (like the verse you quoted) and have it not fit with an aspect of your life or experience, especially when it is something so very personal and emotionally loaded.
People can (and do) try and tell you how to see things, and how its all part of a plan or in the stars or they saw it in their tea leaves or whatever. At the end of the day what it comes down to is what you discover to be your truth. No one on this earth can truly show it to you, they can only hope to help by offering gentle guidance, if anything.
But sometimes its just better to have someone listen, instead.
Exactly, you said it so well. ;-)
It does sound like you're working a lot. I know the feeling, for awhile there I was working six days a week and once i even ended up working fourteen days in a row. cam't tell you how sick I was afterwards. once you're ahead with money, I'd think about backing off alittle. Don't want you to wear yourself out!