We waited at the airport for hours, my neck getting increasingly sore from craning to spot her, scanning every girl's face who was remotely her height because I was paranoid that I wouldn't recognize her, and of course the second I walk away to get food because I'm faint from not having eaten all day, she shows up. So I come back with my hands full and am disconcerted when Ben isn't where I left him, my heart starts beating fast, I look around and there she is! I recognize her immediately and am completely blown away by how much more beautiful she is in real life than she is in photos (she said she'll never forget the surprised, delighted look on my face). A photo can only capture a fleeting glimpse of a person, and it can be an incredibly telling glimpse, but it is so weak compared to the real thing. She smiles excitedly and runs over and throws her arms around me, and I hug her back hard, utterly overwhelmed. That moment is emblazoned on my soul. ♥ In a minute we go over to the luggage claim, holding hands and grinning at each other, barely able to speak... and on the ride home we cuddled in the car, instantly comfortable with loving touch. She lay in my lap and I traced her face with my fingers, not yet able to believe that she was really there... We were both so exhausted (me emotionally, her both emotionally and physically after the 10-hour flight) that we went to sleep shortly after we got home, relaxed enough to be naked together after less than an hour. Oh -- but before we went to sleep I gave her a bunch of gifts that I had intended to mail but didn't, including the chenille throw that I had written on in dye pen, and she loooooooooved it. I don't think she could have loved it any more if I had actually finished it (I only finished writing along one end). It made me so happy that it meant so much to her!


awww. It makes me feel so loved every time I think about how much she loves it. ♥


The next morning I had to go for a pelvic sonogram, which Ashley sweetly drove me to, and Hannah came along of course. We were all

glittery and giggling
in the waiting room -- I think we offended the elderly couple waiting there, pish tush to them. When the nurse called my name I asked if they could come along and she seemed to think that was a strange request but she agreed easily. Then while I was on the table with my very full bladder (apparently that makes things more visible, ugh) the nurse informed me that the doctor wanted me to have a vaginal ultrasound too. So, to the tune of many jokes from Ashley and laughter from us (especially the nurse, who has never had so much fun with such a simple procedure, I'm sure), I had the completely unexpected joy of inserting a probe up my *ahem* and then having my insides prodded and poked -- with an audience. I don't think many people would be comfortable with that -- one of the reasons I love the three of us. ;-D It was actually fun!

Afterward we went to Hardee's and Hannah learned that in America, a biscuit is not a cookie. She thought the sausage biscuits and cinnamon raisin biscuits were delicious! Then Ashley took us to Boling Park and we went on a lushly sunny, hot, green barefoot walk to the A-bridge in the woods. We mostly walked beside the pathway because we have tender feet (especially me *shame*) and at one crossing Ashley just picked me up and walked me across the path! Hannah snapped photos. ;-) On the way back from the bridge (which was quite amazing) Hannah imitated Kanika's 'horny dance' (she was in heat) and didn't realize until AFTERWARDS that there were two guys behind her! We laughed and laughed and she fake-scowled at us for not telling her (we really hadn't noticed). She actually does a very good impression of Kanika! Just before we left we rolled down the hill... SO fun, haven't done that since before I had breasts!


I laugh a lot, especially when I'm happy


Ashley and I both were utterly glowing from the joy of hannah's presence


amazon Analariya carrying me across the walk


I looooooooooove this photo; my expression, the light through the trees, the motion of Ashley and I walking, the fact that hannah took it, the hot pink 'shag bracelet' that I found glowing in the grass and immediately wore...


handstands are SUCH a hannah thing, so glad I got a shot. I love how the skirt falls in an arc and I love her lushly curvy legs


and wow, the swirl of her skirt, her expression, the path leading on and the trees surrounding...


goddess alariya on the bridge in the woods


eee I love their expressions!!!


I kept running ahead to turn around and take pictures of them walking hand in hand -- so beautiful and loving.


see what I mean about the kissy pictures? there were at least two more just from that day. But it makes sense, considering the constant kissing that went on. ;-)


MY FAVORITE PHOTO OF HANNAH EVER!!!!!! The bold, lush color of the grass, violet shirt and swirly skirt, gorgeous legs showing, dirty bare feet, laughing freely -- I don't think a better portrait could be planned. ♥ ♥ ♥ She doesn't like it (wtf?) but she knows I loooooooove it so she's letting me post it anyway.

Hannah and I dropped Ashley off at work since she offered to let us have the car, but when we got home we started talking and ended up talking forever and then to taking a shower. It's so wonderful to be with a fellow nudist -- honest and comfortable (and it saves time and water). *happy sigh* Then we went through my entire closet and I gave her everything that didn't fit me but fit her -- we have very similar taste and she's the same size I was for a long time. It was so easy to let it go when I knew it was going to her, and that she looked so incredible in everything I gave her. She had to get another bag to get it all home though. And here's me in my favorite dress, which I had to show her -- this was before I picked up her photoaddiction or there would have been photos of her trying stuff on, grr.


I loooooove this dress, eventually I'm going to take it to a tailor and get her/him to make me several dresses in the same pattern.


then hannah gave me a soulfriendship ring!!!!!


reflection of openness

It's actually a half of one ring -- the two can be worn together to form a marquise shape. I can't even express how much I love this ring, it's my favorite piece of jewelry by far and possibly my favorite possession. She chose it because it represents our soulfriendship and the similarity of our twin violet spirits -- we are separate, but also one. I love the shape -- it seems so open to me, and for whatever reason it really looks to me like an Egyptian on a nile boat, which I see as being symbolic of hannah and I making the journey of life together. I also love it just as a work of art -- a mixture of delicate complexity (the stone) and strong simplicity (the band). And I love the fact that it is so incredibly unique. And I love that it is silver and amethyst! and that the amethyst has flashes of vivid violet in its depths. And I love the texturizing of the flat side of the band, which says to me that the journey won't be smooth, yet we will still be one. And I love the fact that it means as much to her as it does to me and she wears it every day. ♥

Then we picked Ashley up from work and Ben and Ashley and Hannah and I went to my favorite restaurant and had deliiiiiiiicious food (and Hannah ate about a pound of jalapenos!). I was so happy that Hannah loved it.

I love this one. I'm slowly falling in love with my own smile, thanks to these photos. I can see love radiating through it. I used to hate my teeth so I never smiled for photos, but I'm slowly growing out of that. There is no such thing as a body flaw.


hannah and her gloriousamazingstunning mossy forest eyes. wow.


can you see it? I like this one because it's not a fabulous photo, we both look a little uncomfortable (we were in the lobby of the auto dealership where Ashley works) but I can still see the intensification (bel word coinage!) of our spirits.


hannah gave me that shirt after seeing my extreme covetousness ;-) I looooooooove it! This was at the beginning of the visit so I was still 'candid camera shy' and smothering some of my smiles. You can't see my skirt well, but it has a jagged gauzy hem.


BEAUTIFUL Analariya!!! wow. That eyeshadow suited her SO AMAZINGLY -- it was made for her. It doesn't capture on camera well, but OMG in real life wow.


She was so stunningly confident and bold in that outfit -- it matches all the bold and wild facets of her and seems to allow them to manifest fully. She looks like a frazetta woman in it. ;-)


Afterwards we went home and (the three girls) had a deep conversation about past relationships and how amazing it is that we have found each other. Tears are so refreshing when there is someone who is honored to wipe them away and cuddle you.

Saturday was a really short day -- we got up late, went to the mall (to shop in Torrid and Fredericks of Hollywood) for a few hours, came home and went back to bed. I think we were both worn out from the day before, and being in the mall atmosphere didn't help. Malls are so full of people trying to project an image that doesn't reflect their true selves at all, while judging themselves (and therefore everyone else) so harshly. And everyone walks around in their detachment bubbles, ignoring their human need for connectedness out of fear of rejection and judgement. UGH! But anyway, Hannah was upset and I didn't realize because I was in a sort of detachment bubble myself, and that hurt her, and then when I realized I felt terrible but we pretty quickly worked it out and went straight to sleep. (that wasn't one of the 'fights,' in case you were wondering) The trip wasn't a total loss though, because Hannah got a fabulous purple bra and gouchos and a skirt from Torrid and we both got these AMAZING black dresses which were used in the formal photoshoot, so you shall see them eventually.

Consider this icon a preview of the formal photoshoot post. ;-D