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Date: 2005-02-08 06:27 am (UTC)You are absolutely right, that should never have happened, and you were emotionally and mentally abused. How do you deal with it? You find a counselor and talk with her. I wish I had more to offer you but I really don't... I was emotionally and mentally abused by my dad as well -- I was allowed music and to use the internet, but otherwise I had a very similar highschool experience. My parents didn't let me get involved in any kind of school or friends thing because it was too much effort. I also had to parent my brother and sister for most of my childhood. How have I dealt with it? Well honestly, I know I haven't dealt with it the right way, but it is the only way I can deal at the moment -- I live several states away and never contact them. (they contact me sometimes though) They've never accepted me for who I am, and at thsi point I can't trust them enough to show them who I am. I've tried that in the past and they refused to see.
Anyway, I rambled on and on.... what I meant to say was, I know kinda how you feel, but I don't have any good advice except to try and find a counselor. *hugs*