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June 2017


Expect to find curse words, nudity, (occasionally explicit) talk of sex, and angry ranting, but NEVER slurs or sexually violent language. I use TW when I am aware of the need and on request.

belenen: (overwhelmed)
overwhelmed, so overwhelmed. a wedding and a funeral, stress and sprained tailbone
icon: "overwhelmed (the character Keenan from "Playing By Heart," with hands over their face covering their eyes and head tilted back)"

I'm in a wedding on Sunday as part of the bridal party of my longest-term friend and going to the funeral of someone who was more of a grandparent to me than any of my biological grandparents on Sunday. There are way too many feelings with all this and the unstable housing situation and loads of empathy-stress from pretty much everyone I love. Also, my exercise ball (the one I was using at work) exploded and I was so focused on my work I didn't realize I was falling until I was on the floor and I bruised my butt and sprained my tailbone, which has been hurting ever since (though, nothing as bad as that first day, so I know it isn't broken). I'm overloaded on every level. Turned most of my feelings off until later. My ADD has been going absolutely haywire and I can barely manage to do the basics. Actually I can't really manage, I have forgotten to eat for most of this past week and then thrown some half-assed non-nutritious thing in my mouth to keep from falling apart. Just holding on.

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Keep holding on. Just keep holding on...

My goodness, that's a lot to deal with all at once. I'll be thinking of you over the next few days. I hope you can find some quiet so you can take some breaths.
Try to find moments to escape & be by yourself when you can. I don't know, when there's whirlwinds happening around me I try to "take breaks" often. Sometimes it can be exhausting to put on the happy face. Do try to remember & grab a banana or something, an empty stomach is no good. I can't believe your exercise ball exploded! That is one of my greatest fears. I sit on one at my desk & often think about how old it is or just how likely that could happen. I'm so sorry!
That is so much to deal with at once. Hang in there, take care of yourself.
*sending good thoughts your way*
I wish you a great time at the wedding and condolence too for your loved one. These feelings all together can be overwhelming but you're awesome for being there for both regardless of the situation

Oh dear, hang in there! I hope it'll all be better soon.