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Expect to find curse words, nudity, (occasionally explicit) talk of sex, and angry ranting, but NEVER slurs or sexually violent language. I use TW when I am aware of the need and on request.

Date: 2010-01-21 09:26 pm (UTC)
Yay for risk taking! Was of my aims for this year is similar to getting out of the habit of thinking "what if bad things happen?": I'm fed up of not doing things from fear!

And the third paragraph was cheering, gave me hope. I long to have people close, people I love and who I feel I belong with. Guess I have to find a way to work on finding that. It's good to hear about it happening for you :-D

And WOW the year has gone so fast! The things you say about january, february time, they seem so close! Its weird. And this post is good for reminding me of entries you wrote where I didn't feel I had time to concentrate on them, and at the time just glanced, meaning to go back later. The BDSM ones, particularly. I'm not sure what was going on with me at that time, but I couldn't give them my full attention at the time. So I'm going to go back to those :-) Is it ok to comment on them, or would you rather not as its not as present in your mind? Seems in my head that all my thoughts will get into an order and then float off into parts again, but you seem to build your views, give them structure. So perhaps things don't need to be so fresh in your mind :-) Because you know your mind. I could do with getting to know mine again! I've lost solidity these past few years. Or perhaps solidity is the wrong word, it has wrong associations. Fluid solidity. Some kind of a core! Something lasting!

I'm rambling. Such a lot of pain in 2009, for you, but gosh, what a lot of brilliance! And growing, and new experiences... new ways of being.
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